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Monday, October 01, 2007

越來越發覺時間過得快。朋友都說我疏懶了,「浪子」一文之後,久久沒有新東西,那才赫然發現,上載上篇文章距今,經已有三星期了。

當然懶惰是主因,其次是因為近期真的比較忙。工作浪接浪,而且有很多還是突發的,根本沒有時間去慢慢部署。也好,忙碌的日子能夠使自己喘不過氣,當每日放工也累得只剩半條人命時,根本已再沒有多餘的精力去胡思亂想。

請容我作點真情告白,其實我也並非如外表的強悍、樂觀。我是一個「先天下之憂而憂」的人,「擔心」往往比別人所想的快來幾步,當口在說「到時先算」時,其實內心已經在盤算、在擔心。可惜,我有這種性格,偏偏卻無范仲淹之才,而且擔心的也只是雞毛蒜皮之事,於是往往流於想得太多。猶幸,吾亦非「後天下之樂而樂」之輩,否則應該一早便患上妄想症或思覺失調。

曾跟朋友戲言自己是「柯南」,當然並非因為我真的有偵探頭腦。其實,那只是由於我喜歡揣測。我相信,如果我是一個警察,這種性格應有助我屢破奇案,陞官發財,但可惜我只是辦公室內一個不太起眼的小薯。

記得早前有段時間,心情持續陷於谷底,每晚都睡不安寧,想的事情每每悲觀到極點,而且還不時無緣無故便想哭。老實說,當時也曾擔心過自己是否患上了抑鬱症或者其他情緒上的毛病,但後來見情況好轉,也就不了了之。

現在陰霾已過,關心我的朋友也請放心,我現在很好呢!

8 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

請緊記蘇民峰所講,一切都是命中注定的,命裡有時終須有,命裡無時莫強求.不要過份執著,一切隨緣,那你就生活得更開心架嗱.

10/02/2007 5:32 PM  
Blogger Helmet Jane said...

愛茶之女,其實也不盡是執著與否的問題.只是的本來的性格就欠缺安全感,再加上有點神經質,所以常常都會胡思亂想.這似乎是死症,應該無得救....唉!

10/02/2007 11:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

性格尚對比較難改,希望你快d行運,際遇好d會好d,另外你知道 i am your fans, we should sing "stand by me".

10/03/2007 9:43 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

每日笑呵呵,困難好快過!

10/04/2007 6:59 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sorry to intrude your blog, i got to say i have no idea what you ppl hinting. but i just want to share that you are not alone to have 2 faces, one wears in front of a group and the other left at home.

regarding the "fate" thing. is it really helps to ease any pain? no offence, but i just find it hard to ease mine. since i couldn't tell is it the end of tunnel once i couldn't find any sight of light? how "fate" can help with this?

10/06/2007 1:32 AM  
Blogger Helmet Jane said...

as-28, welcome to my blog again!

I do believe in fate as there are too many things in life which can hardly be explained by logic. You may say I am a pessimist, but the point is, if you accept that most, if not all the things are programmed even at the very beginning, then you may feel less disappointed when the outcome is not as favourable as you expected.

Anyway, add oil add oil...

10/06/2007 1:02 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

share you some of my favorite lines.

Naked Lyrics
Artist: Avril Lavigne

I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes

p.s. just learn the news from mb, you 2, add oil and shape your future.

10/06/2007 11:50 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

等你的文章很久了!

其實有邊個是無憂的, 誰都不明日是怎樣, 誰都不知自己的決定是對定錯. 唯有不鑽牛角尖, 找朋友傾下, 就算不能解決, 傾下都好呢.

多保重呀, 身子要緊!

10/08/2007 11:28 PM  

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